I warn you, I'm feeling sentimental and overwhelmed with happiness. This is the ever-after, the one I wondered for so many years, "Would this make me happy?" The simple answer is yes, it fills me with unspeakable joy to see my body complete. I discover all I have missed and barely dared to dream before… Continue reading I am happy. Post-op morning, phalloplasty
As I get further over a year post-op transgender phalloplasty (radial forearm flap / RFF / "ftm" although I am nonbinary)-- I find the scars softening and fading further. I am in total amazement at the micropigmentation tattoo, which reproduced so many layers of coloration natural to a penis. I took more photos in the… Continue reading Post-op erectile implant gallery & healed phalloplasty scrotoplasty
I just about had a panic the first couple months after phalloplasty when no underwear on the planet fit me right. I even contacted my surgeon at the center for transgender health for help-- spoilers, it was swelling. But he didn't know what to tell me. "Try out different underwear like we all did?" He… Continue reading Underwear After Trans Phalloplasty
Since I created this blog, based on the stats, i feel like a lot of people are looking at it. I wish I could know more about who is reading it, whether it is useful and helpful? This is really for me, but I hope.
I mean, it was the my first time my penis from phalloplasty made someone else orgasm. My wife is different. She is six foot two or three, but she tells people she is six feet. She is naturally very pretty in the face; people often ask her if she is an indie musician by her… Continue reading post-op sex: erotica? My first time making someone else orgasm
So I was just barely cleared for sex post erectile implant stage of phalloplasty on Jan 23. It's like two ish weeks later, maybe three. I guess life has been busy, because the mindblowing erection Fantasyland I'd been building up in my mind has been... More a solo thing. Which isn't bad at all, since… Continue reading My first time feeling heat: Sensation my first Valentine’s postop
I don't care for the term "results" regarding my body, but for people who use the term--This the final outcome right here, RFF phalloplasty, scars and all. I find people don't just want to see it; they want to see how it moves. They want to see how it looks when you run around. Jog.… Continue reading Video: Healed phalloplasty!! Dancing 🥂
Adulting while trans: Navigating disability insurance as a way to help bottom surgery become a reality How do you get by financially while being out so long for surgery? I don’t want to be grim—but if you hit complications or extended leave, it could ruin you financially. If you have access to disability policies, they… Continue reading How to get disability insurance pay out for trans bottom surgery
I'm not rich, having a pink collar professional job. Pink, a traditionally female occupation and paid accordingly. I got exceptional insurance through my online college program at Johns Hopkins, a Consolidated Student Health plan using the Cigna network (but not exactly Cigna). That insurance is how I "won the lottery" and completed surgery. Although to… Continue reading The cost of phalloplasty – how & how much did I pay for surgery?
I've been having trouble going to sleep on time, because ever since finishing the last stage of phalloplasty, I want time alone with my body. Yeah, some of it is masturbation, but it's as much for exploration of how my body post-op even works as it is for pleasure. I just feel this urge to… Continue reading Marriage & sex life immediately post-op phalloplasty