Frequently Asked Questions

A transgender diary about surgeries and life after. I balance out the hate with my joy.

What is the blog about?

What is your gender? Why do you have a penis and a vagina?

Why is this blog so personal?

Hi! I’m enbytex. I’m a nonbinary trans person who likes to share my medical experience of surgery as a way of making this information more available to others. This blog documents an experience which is frequently called Transgender FTM Phalloplasty, or female-to-male phalloplasty built 12/2017-12/2018 and life beyond. The content is 18+.

As a nonbinary person, my gender is more expansive than those simple this-to-that paradigms.  The surgeons at Johns Hopkins Center for Transgender Health were discussed my specific goals in detail. They affirmed what would relieve my dysphoria: to create a erectile-functional male-typical penis and scrotum with testicles. I did not want to have vaginectomy, and standing to pee has never been a particular goal or dysphoria of mine, so I did not have these aspects of surgery that some others find important. They were offered. I appreciate the way they did not give me a cookie-cutter surgery plan. Every aspect was customized to my health needs.  

A note on my purpose: This is a personal diary. Sometimes it rambles. Sometimes it is written in an affirmation-style to help me feel proud and sexy. Sometimes it is overly flowery. This is a way I compensate for hateful messages I encounter where I live. If it seems proud or over the top, this is why. This information is hard to find when considering surgery, so I hope to make it freely available. It is only my own experience, however.

Do you have sensation?

Who was your surgeon?

What insurance did you use?

How would you rate your experience with these doctors?


How big is your penis?


Are you happy?

How do I contact your surgeon?

Can I repost the images in this blog? Can I share the link? Can I show pictures to my partner or surgeon?

Can I use the images in a professional presentation?

Yes, base to tip. Tactile, pressure, cold, pain, and erogenous pleasure from sexual contexts. 

Devin O’Brien-Coon, plastics and microsurgery;
Arthur Burnett, urology;
Simon Best, laryngology.
All are part of the team at the JHCTH in Baltimore, Maryland. 

I used student health insurance based in the USA. My cost was the max out of pocket twice– $4250×2. Twice because it took place in two plan years. The hospital allows payment plans later. I had other travel expenses and time off work costs. Phalloplasty was three stages of surgery and extended trips to Baltimore. 

Excellent in every regard. Our rapport will last a lifetime, and I will never forget how generous they were with their time, how compassionate, professional, thoughtful, and collaborative. Their office staffs are busy but highly skilled and will go to bat for you. 

This question boring to me. It is big enough? It does get girthier when I have an erection. It gets longer maybe a half inch or an inch when erect vs when soft.

Absolutely, 100%. No matter how difficult or expensive it was, it is 100% worth it. 

The email address of the Johns Hopkins Center for Transgender Health is jhcth@jhmu.edu

No, you may not repost images.
Yes, you may send links freely as this site is open for public health education and community information.
I would like the images to be given in context.
You are welcome to save images to your devices and share them 1-1, alongside a link to the blog.

Please use the “contact me” to discuss a limited permission for educational reasons.

With permission requests:

Gender is the poetry each of us makes out of the language we are taught.

— Leslie Feinberg